monday evening//things discovered

daylight savings is a time for me to unfurl; to come out from under my cozy, textured layers and let my skin breathe; to see the the world in color and not just in the gray/black tones i've found comfortable for the last few months. the change in seasons is truly a turning of a new leaf, of digging out what's been below for just a little bit too long.

as i've said before, i need change - i thrive in the change of seasons (well, in all change, really.) i am more creative, more inspired, more me as the seasons change than at any other time of the year. right now, more than ever, i am craving this change; craving a new perspective on life, seeing things in color and not just through a dusty gray lens.

i need some color, some sunshine and some lightness of being.

oh, and might i add that i turn 30 this week?! maybe i'm feeling this a little bit, too...well, likely that's part of this feeling.

some of the things that are feeding this hunger right now are...

evoke the spirit | beautiful skulls handmade in the sweet town of sayulita, mexico. each skull starts out bare boned (literally) and is woven into beautiful patterns with the brightest of threads.

mexican + aztec print anything | rugs. pillows. prints. you name it. these patterns make a home feel alive and vibrant and i'm searching high and low for the perfect additions to our home. see also: meadow at dusk.

summer nights at dairy queen on riverside drive | i haven't been home in almost 2 1/2 years, so needless to say, i'm homesick...scrolling through facebook today, i saw this and was reminded at how many summer nights in high school were spent here with some people i cherish so much.

mamaandbean | i love going through my old posts - i love to reflect on my world then with the perspective i have now. at this very moment, there's so much of the old me that i'm searching for and am craving for in the me right now.

a rock your bliss retreat | i just started filling my piggy bank for this retreat for SO many reasons, amongst them is spending a transformational week with my best friend and achieving a goal of mine, to boot. it's happening - if there's a will, there's a way, right?

looking forward to taking off my sunglasses this week and thoroughly enjoying everything the sun shines down upon.

this post doesn't need a title.

we went to see the christmas tree lighting tonight at city hall.

i didn't think.

i didn't think about the protests that haven't stopped around the country since last week's news. i didn't think to read the news today. i didn't think about the injustice that we are becoming so numb to, so numb that so many have just started to accept it.

i didn't think about that.

we just wanted to take the little one to see the christmas tree lighting. we just wanted to show our little one the joy that this season brings us (me, in particular.) we wanted to carry on with our day-to-day. but to carry on with our day-to-day means that we run into people taking a stand.

i didn't think i would be overcome with the energy of the protest that took over the lighting ceremony. that just going to city hall to show the little one the beauty of the giant christmas tree covered in beautiful lights in the middle of city hall would actually get me thinking about the world in which we exist today. i just didn't think.

i didn't think that deleting facebook from my phone this morning would keep me so far away from what was happening today. i didn't think that i relied so heavily on social media to get my news. i didn't think i'd miss the news about the injustice served once again in staten island.

yet again, i didn't think i'd get used to this news.

via new york times

breaking habits

what is the thing you've made a part of your daily routine that doesn't support the goals you want to achieve?  the hitting-the-snooze-button, scrolling-through-facebook, tapping-photos-senselessly thing that you do? what would change if you just stopped doing it? what would change if you just changed that one habit? that one thing you've made into a routine.

what if you didn't grab your phone when you went on bathroom or fall asleep with the phone in your hand? what if you just sat through a dinner with the love of your life without entering your passcode? what if, with a little extra time on your hands, you read your favorite book or discovered a new one? what if, when you picked up  your phone, you used it to call your best friend instead of sending a text?

just what if?

i'll bet a whole new world would open up. i'd bet your relationships would change. your days would be planned out, your to-do lists completed.

what if you just changed your daily routine by waking up with your alarm (instead of hitting that G-D snooze button) tomorrow?

i'll let you know after my life changes tomorrow.

two.

sweet silas.  

it’s been two laugh and love (and tear)-filled years since you came into this world.  you have shown me how to have a little more fun, how to take things a little less seriously and you’ve given me (us) the time and space to make mistakes and learn how to be the best parents for you.  your sense of adventure, your infinite amount of energy and the sheer joy in your laugh have shown me a new way to live.

you are the light of our eyes.  

happy 2nd birthday, you wild boy, you.  we love you to the moon and back.